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Thursday, February 1st, 2007
7:55 am
Long time no see
So lets see, January 23rd, 2005 till Feb 1st, 2007. That is more than two entire years of journal keeping that is missing. I had actually forgotten that I even had a blog. Scary. So lets see, update time I guess.

Since my last post I have pretty much finished my CS honors and Math BSC. Should graduate in may 2007 with both. Then the choices start getting interesting, since that is when I have to start considering grad school, etc.

August 2005, I went to see the world badminton championships in Anaheim. Hell of an experience. When I went, I was probably in the worst shape of my life. When I came back, I was a full of fire. I got a membership at the court and fitness club, and started playing 3-5 times a week. I have continued this unabated until now (almost 18 months later). Part of my inspiration was training for the canada games in feb 2007. I am now on the team and should be able to spend a week in whitehorse this semester if things work out. Last October, James, Rich and I started hitting the gym together at 6:30 in the morning. We kept it up for 8 weeks pretty solidly (only missing a couple days) till christmas. Since the end of holidays, we havent missed a day. Getting up early to meditate then hit the gym is really good for starting the day. The only problem is that in order to do it successfully, you have to get used to the idea of doing work in the morning after the gym. This is because the usual evening hours are almost nonexistent (especially in my case, with badminton and volleyball taking up most evenings). I am now in undoubtedly the best shape of my life, and hope to continue to improve ad infinitum down this path.

Interests nowadays involve badminton, volleyball, parkour and martial arts. I haven't trained formally yet, but I am working a lot on my plyometrics, flexibility, and strength. I can really see the results sometimes when playing badminton or volleyball.

So thus ends my catching-up exposition. If anyone wants to know more, ask me.

Current Mood: calm
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
3:52 pm
Result You scored as Visual/Spatial.

You probably feel at home with the visual arts, maps, charts, and diagrams. You tend to think in images and pictures. You learn best by looking at pictures and slides, watching videos or movies, and visualizing. People like you include sculptors, painters, surgeons and engineers.

Visual/Spatial

96%

Verbal/Linguistic

93%

Bodily/Kinesthetic

93%

Intrapersonal

89%

Interpersonal

79%

Logical/Mathematical

68%

Musical/Rhythmic

57%
Monday, January 10th, 2005
10:28 pm
So out of date....
Ok quick update:

- I plan to update my journal more often.

- This is a psycho semester: cs 330, cs 405, cs 412, Econ 100, Psych 102

- I am also working three jobs: Teaching badminton at the field house, marking physics 109, and marking cs 100.

- Addicted to Total Annihilation right now, but beginning to work my way through the addiction....

- Really tired after my night class. Not feeling too good either.

Have a good one.

Current Mood: sick
Tuesday, November 9th, 2004
2:43 pm
Well at this exact moment I am doing laundry, making pizza, and chatting with friends. I just signed up for the regina ABC tournament this coming weekend. I will be playing doubles with mike bodnar, and there is a good chance we can take the tournament. Just now on msn chris said he was coming over to have some pizza :D. I am going to phone my parents pretty quick here. Life is crazy.


I guess my journaL does not reflect the amazing events of the last two weeks. In sooth, I do not have time to relate them all right now, but lets just say I finally have a direction for my schooling, and in a lot of ways, for my life.

Current Mood: Awesome
Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
10:01 pm
Well wrote my physics test this morning. Decided about half an hour before the test that I would not study Gram-Schmidt orthogonalization since I figured that there was no way that he would put something that hard on the exam. Sure enough, one third of the exam was on that. Gah!

Well it might not turn out so badly, but I definitely need to "kick it up a notch" so that this doesnt happen again. As Baz Lurhman says, real problems are those that sidewind you on an idle tuesday....like today....

This week has been incredibly long so far. Yesterday felt like three or four days, and today felt almost as long. Now all I have to do this week is an assignment for cs 310. If I can get that out of the way I should really work on my cs 340 assignment for next week.

Come to think of it, this semester has been rather easy on me so far. I think it is just resting up, and it will take me out sooner or later. Lets see if I can run fast enough to keep my lead on it until december :D

Current Mood: thoughtful
Monday, October 25th, 2004
1:33 pm
Studying up for my physics 351 midterm exam. So far this has been the hardest, and highest level class I have ever attempted. The craziest thing is the breadth of knowledge one must have about mathematics to even attempt it. The first chapter of the textbook includes a quick overview of Math 122, 214, and 228. That chapter goes from the basics to 3rd year mathematics in 25 pages. Insane.

Well anyway, life's been good, I think. I can't really remember what I have on the go when I write these things. Antrobus' class is shaping up to be interesting this week and next (what else is new :P).

This morning I had an interesting breakfast: A small salad, a bowl of cereal, huge glass of apple juice, two slices of my homemade pizza, and a barqs. I felt pretty strange for a bit, but now I feel 150% my normal for this time of the day. Sweet. I should do this more often :D

Current Mood: productive
Friday, October 22nd, 2004
5:00 pm
Wow, three weeks since last entry. Midterms are going now, just wrote my cs 310 one last night. It went pretty well and I am hoping that my Physics 351 one this coming tuesday goes as well. The health expo is this weekend, and I will be helping some people run a Gano booth there. I don't really expect much to come from this, but it will be good for me to get out of the university for a few hours this week. Spreading gano around is always good too.

blah, 340 assignment due tonight before midnight. Time to get cracking.

Hopefully I can update my journal more often now....
Thursday, September 30th, 2004
12:43 am
Long time since last update. Just too busy with this and that. Assignments beginning to be due now, as well as sports beginning to be played on a more regular basis. Antrobus' class is amazing, but I wont even attempt to go into detail on that. Volleyball is great, and so is Badminton on Monday nights.

Zzzzz, getting bored and its late. More updates later.

Have a good one.

Current Mood: sleepy
Sunday, September 19th, 2004
11:32 am
Another morning for the books
Yet another morning where I wake up mentally exhausted from an incredibly strange set of dreams. This time I was moving into a new room in an apartment or something, and then a huge plot develops from there. I go through hell trying to save the world, only to come back and have people bitching at me to get moving cause I was behind scedule. I woke up pissed off and irritable. GAH!!!

This was just the highlight story, I wont even go into the other ones. There was some F-ed up stuff there...

So today, I go shopping. Do some physics. Work on the 372 project. Then go for a movie night and discuss badminton teaching with Noelle. If I had time today, I would just go back to sleep....ah well. That would just mean sacraficeing myself to the shitty dream again.

I have come to realise that my best sleeps are when my brain ISNT thinking about anything. Because if it is, then I toss and turn all night, and wake up feeling mentally and physically exhausted. More than once this week I have cursed my imagination.
Friday, September 17th, 2004
8:02 am
WOW What a morning
Woke up this morning after 6 hours of horribly dream/nightmare ridden sleep. This will now turn into a dream blog temporarily.

Dream 1: Trying to watch a movie and being bugged by a cat jumping onto my lap. I keep throwing the cat off, since its not of a quiet disposition, and it keeps getting madder and madder. Finally after a while it transforms into a heavyset woman with claws. A Mortal Kombat style fight ensues.

Smooth Transition (no clue how) into the 2nd dream.

Dream 2: Under some conditions apparently, it is possible for a semitrailer to jacknife and somehow spin 360 degrees on pavement while going down a highway...without flipping. I got an in-depth documentary style dream all about everything I didnt want to know about semitrailer physics. What is the world coming to?

Dream 3: Caught in a Grendel-Keep type environment (those who have played UT 2004 will know what I mean, but just imagine a 4 or 5 level black stone building with scary looking torture and electronic/biological devices all over the place). Enter the main villian and his mercenary sidekick. They are using it as a hospital and taking human organs to make themselves more powerful (fill in your own details on how, I have no clue). Anyway, they are hurting all sorts of people, but I dont know this, I am jsut getting an IN DEPTH tour of the building for several hours. I learn a lot of useless tidbits about the gruesome history of the building, and also a fair bit about the characters themselves, no names mentioned.

Now, the main villian is pretty evil, and he is doing some bad stuff, but it turns out that his merc hireling is worse still, so they turn on each other. The main guy sends his lackeys to fight the genetically enhanced merc guy, who looks almost identical to Argus Finch in Harry Potter. (thin and looking like he is about to die, but let me tell you one thing, this guy tools everyone for a good while). I think I am a reporter or something in this dream because I really dont do anything, I just follow this one guy around who has some pretty amazing skills. (combat) He ends up in a huge final fight with the evil merc, this stretches across several encounters in the keep. They use every weapon you could imagine. Everything from bio weapons, to lasers, to guns, to knives and swords, to finally....a monkey wrench, and no I am not joking. Finally, in a weekend-tv-movie-type action, we see the good guy use a move that he showed us at the beginning on the evil guy, and he catches the throwing knife out of the air and throws it back in a split second. Wohoo, everyone's alright, the thing degenerates into trying to save the lives of those whose organs were stolen, fun fun.


Ok done with the dream blog, but just to point out, that this has been average lately. My dreams have been dicking around in dimensions I dont want to know about. If I am not careful I will end up someday dreaming about, and writing about, a place like the world in Hitchikers Guide to The Galaxy. STill, I feel good today (wtf???) and I am off to CS 340 now.

Cheers

Current Mood: giggly
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
11:08 pm
New Pad
Finished moving into the new Apartment a few days ago. Now in the new Towers on campus. Hellova nice place. Took me two days to move in, then this last few to sort everything out and get settled in. I am still not quite settled since I dont have any shelves to put my books and stuff onto. Thus the plan is tomorrow to go to a whole bunch of garage sales and try to find some (shelves).

Other than that, life has been good. Had a good movie night last night at Chris' place. Mark and Vili were there as well and we had a great time. Planning to do an 80's horror night later on in the week, since we rented a metric shitload (which is, of course, a whole lot more than a normal shitload) of movies and have only watched two of them.

Internet at the new place rules, but I imagine it wont be so once 700 more people move in. So for now I am attempting to download the entire Dragon Ball Z saga. Wohooo, go downloads go!

Finally finished unpacking all my food and dishes in the new place. So now I must turn attention to my room...yikes.... If I dont get those shelves I am screwed royally.

Back to work I am I am.

Current Mood: chipper
Monday, August 30th, 2004
10:15 pm
Adaptation
Just watched Adaptation for the third time. What a movie. One of those true classics that will stay with a person their whole life. I liked it the first time, loved it the second time, but I am close to worshipping it the third time.

"You are what you love, not what loves you."

This line in the movie puts so much of a person's life in perspective. So many times I have agonized over a decision I made, or a thought I had, desperately wondering what people would think of it if they knew. Now I am not ashamed of anything I believe in or love. I won't let myself be tied down by the shackles that proper society puts on people. I enjoy being a free soul I realize now, and I am not about to give that up for propriety.

Wear your character on your sleeves and you will go through the pain of people not liking you for what you are. Still in the long run it means you are not lying to the world or -- more importantly -- yourself.
Saturday, August 28th, 2004
3:09 pm
Reflection
I just watched the final OVA of the Rurouni Kenshin series. It is incredible. I have definitely changed, for the better, because of this anime series. There is no doubt in my mind why it is rated one of the top 5 series of all time.

It scares me, but I cannot avoid feeling an incredibly close kinship with Kenshin. Every single facet of his personality I can find within myself. The standard of honor, the devotion to friends and family, and last but not least, the deep seated power that comes from hate and sadness. He takes on the pain of the world and it slowly tears him apart, even as it teaches him the meaning of his own life.

Is true goodness the ability to find what is good in anyone? To dig deep down into another person, learning to love them for what they are, and to catch a glimse of the ray of light that is in all? Finally, to try to bring that light screaming to the surface?

How strong must one be?
Friday, August 27th, 2004
9:19 am
What a fine fine day
Woke up this morning at 6:30 after under five hours of sleep and had a good breakfast. Bung Balogna (fried lightly) with two eggs and some cheese on toast with orange juice, water and two cups of gano coffee(essential). Went for a run around the lake via Broad st. Bridge then across to ring road and back to the uni. I think it was my fastest time, around 45 minutes today. I feel pretty good considering. I usually dont feel too good after a run but today is not bad. I really pushed myself around the ring road section of the run. I havent stretched myself that far since training for Canada Games. All my worries about softening up lately have been destroyed. I am headed towards being in the best shape I have ever been.

Truth be told I think the Gano Coffee has a fair bit to do with my newfound willpower in the mornings. It is as energetic as normal coffee, but you dont get that caffiene edginess. Perhaps it is mostly in my head, but hey, if its causing this strength, even indirectly, its worth it. I really think there are a lot of people who could change their lives for the better if they started drinking it. I have a tendancy to like spreading good things around, be they good jokes or movies or anime series or coffee brands. It pains me to think that coffee is the 2nd most traded commodity in the world and so many people drink it for the energy, ruining their health. I know for a fact that gano coffee is going to take over, I am just waiting for people to smarten up. Arg, enough ranting.

Right now I am just cooling off writing this and reading my friend's journals. Soon off to a shower, then a ton of errands around the univeristy. Finally, I have to go to the office this afternoon for a few hours. yey. Ah well, I really shouldn't complain. After all, I have worked two hours this week so far. The job is almost over with and I am tieing everything up for the fall: getting ready to move, changing classes (I am SO dropping math 312), getting parking pass($$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$), and finding out what my friends' scedules are like.

So much to do.

To those that read this far: Have a good day.

To those that skipped to the end: Don't ruin the story by reading the ending! Sheesh.
Wednesday, August 25th, 2004
4:08 pm
Its been a chaotic day. Was downtown, then at the office, then talked to the residence people, then set up an HTML class for someone for work. Pure chaos I say.

Now planning a good age of Mythology night with chris and anyone else who wants to play.

Good times.

Current Mood: bouncy
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
7:04 pm
Regina....
Back in town after the fishing trip tying up loose ends to do with student loans and also some stuff for my brother.

Only been up 9 hours but im so tired....

I am losing lucidity fast, so I will leave it at that...
Friday, August 20th, 2004
2:00 pm
friday afternoon
Getting everything finalized for the trip. Clothes, gear, food. Feels like a weekend I wont forget. I am sure that the stories are going to be great.

No time, no time, no time, why am I even on here? gah!
1:46 am
friday
Just setting up my account on here. Wrote my bio, then spent almost as long trying to figure out how to log in. hip hip horaaay! Here goes the CS guy trying to log into a site :S

Anyway, tomorrow (today, its after midnight) promises to be an interesting day as my friends and myself leave on a sweet fishing trip up north to Canwood. We leave the bright blight of the city behind and move on to catching slimy scary slough sharks. (Also known as Snakes, Jacks, Slimy Jacks, and Northern Pike)

Kudos to those that have kept these journals so far, I like the dedication people show in their entries. I already know mine will be few and far between, but usually expansive. Once I get writing, there is no stopping me for a while.

Also moving in two weeks...this is an interesting time. Changing terms, residences, roommates, jobs, and also life priorities in a few days. Good times.

It's going to be cool when Kendric gets back and we are once again a big ol' jolly lot of CS guys chewing our way through life. My classes turned out to be a bitch, since all the psych classes seem to be full and that is what I WANT as my 5th class. Now I am quite put out with the system, since I know that many of the people in those classes and on the waiting lists are just going to drop anyway. I have dropped one class I think in my entire university career thus far, and that was transferring from one instance of English 100 to another.

Here I go, getting all expansive again. Did anyone ever notice that after a while of typing you just stop making mistakes? I have typed the last two paragraphs hitting the backspace key about three times. This rocks. Reminds me of the good old C# days with our CS 230 project. 10 hour coding binges are something that sticks in my mind. Blah! The clock is ticking away, its something like 2am now, I have such a huge day tomorrow. YIKES. Time to get cracking. Better start to pack.

To any who might consume: Have a nice day!
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